Don’t look back like Dylan in the movies…

I had a positive. 5 1/2 weeks into pregnancy it all went away without my consent. I’m healthy, young, drug and alcohol free lifestyle….but sometimes fate takes a hand leading you in a different direction. Maybe I wouldn’t have noticed except I was looking for a baby. I would have never taken a pregnancy test if I hadn’t desired and been looking for one. Alas, I will grieve and let go. I knew this was common for a lot of women, but I never knew it would happen to me. Most importantly, Michael and I can’t blame ourselves for something out of our hands. We will keep trying for a darling one of our own. This has really made me think about taking some time off from working a job- just for a little while. I think I need to emotionally/spiritually/physically reboot and rebuild- find a new occupation that has a positive impact on my life in the meantime. I guess its that growing time. I’m going faster through time than a glance over my shoulder. I can barely see where I came from and I can hardly see where I’m going.

Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself

Psalm 84: 2-4