Gestational Diabetes

I’ve been diagnosed in my third trimester with gestational diabetes. It’s been a tough two weeks to say the least….Especially since I’ve had people fat shame me while pregnant..the joke “Are you having twins?” is not funny by the way. If you are one of these jokers, believe me even if the pregnant woman you say this to gives a fake, half convincing laugh …she will secretly want to kick you in the groin. It’s even worse when people in our society equate diabetes to obesity. I did too- until I met my sister-in-law and brother-in-law later in life..athletic, health conscious, young- both diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Obesity is a RISK FACTOR, NOT the cause of diabetes.

Type 1 diabetes is like an autoimmune disorder. Type 2 is complicated with several risk factors and is still not altogether figured out yet. The testing has improved so maybe that’s why more people are being diagnosed than ever before. Prior to blood tests it was more common to use a test measuring blood sugar levels in urine. Treatment has improved too with different types of insulin [rapid release, slow release] and now synthetically created rather than relying on animal sources.

I had to go to a class that was 2 1/2 hours long explaining all the types of diabetes, how to prick my finger, and plan a diet with a registered dietician. My diet plan is far more restrictive than type 2..because I’m carrying a baby and there’s a lot more risks involved. I’ve nerd out these past weeks gathering as much research as I can about my condition.

It might be temporary..or it might not. Gestational diabetes increases my chance of type 2 by 40-60%.

I was really, really hoping that all the fat shamers I’ve met in my pregnancy may be right..that all I had was too many cookies that put me into this situation. So, I put myself on a strict low carb, low sugar diet..even impressed my dietician with my disciplined eating habits. I’ve been vegetarian for years, been vegan, been RAW vegan…I can really manipulate my diet when I want to 😀

However, I didn’t expect the mood swings to occur..huge mood swings mixed with hormones and cutting out sugar, carbs, caffeine..I’ve cried so much and randomly I started crying just eating a spoonful of peanut butter for “dessert”.

Even then..while my food glucose levels [one hour after eating I have to measure my blood sugar to make sure insulin is being produced by pancreas to lower sugar in my blood]..were good…

my fasting glucose [sleeping/morning without food] was bad…these numbers I couldn’t control though I’ve tried manipulating times I eat dinner, amount of calories, snacks, etc. I’m still high in the morning no matter what I do.

The pancreas during pregnancy has to produce 3x the amount of insulin than a non-pregnant person. The pancreas can be stressed out and produce less insulin during pregnancy..that’s why sometimes it disappears altogether after pregnancy..sometimes its just the stress to produce 3x the amount that normal.

It’s important to be treated with gestational diabetes…I had someone tell me, “Ah it just means you have big babies-no big deal!”

Nope, there’s a higher risk of other complications- preeclampsia, macrosomia, low blood sugar of the baby at delivery, respiratory issues of the baby, preterm labor, etc.

My Aunt Carolyn actually experienced a stillbirth because her glucose levels were not brought down low enough for the safety of the baby.

I just feel like gestational diabetes is soooooo misunderstood by the general public. I thought I could control it with diet, but that’s not the case…and sometimes diet alone doesn’t cure the world’s illnesses..sorry, Americans are not just plagued by fat and its not the only cause for everything that goes wrong in the body…that would be an easy fix if self-will could really change your entire well-being in every situation of life. Such is life..there’s more gray than black and white in the reality of most situations of every day life.

So I am to visit the Maternal Fetal Medicine people on Monday for an ultrasound to see the growth and development of the well as get prescribed insulin. It was very disheartening when I learned my diet, exercise, and calorie control was not enough. It’s very frustrating not to have control over your own body..and honestly I’ve never experienced anything quite like this before. It’s not that I’m a control freak..ich, I don’t think I am..maybe I am lol. I’m used to everything being an easy solution based on how much I give to the situation. Pregnancy has been quite an adventure..with a lot of events out of your personal control…yet it is miraculous. I won’t be pregnant forever though 9 months seems a mixture of time flying by and creeping by.. I am so thankful for Baby Jude and I remind myself multiple times that I’ve been waiting for this beautiful baby to be in my life and it won’t be too much longer that I will get to hold him in my arms…That’s what I’m looking forward to the being able to hold him in my arms and kiss him night and day. You little man, are already the center of my universe and I can’t wait to spend every day with you 🙂